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Fear
For this initial blog post, I am going to just describe the reaction I think I am going to get from my classmates.
My project is going to be presented in a power point presentation and when I show my initial slide in the presentation, I am guessing there is going to be some laughter and lots of curious faces trying to figure out how anyone could have a fear of what I'm going to show. When I show the next slide of the presentation, I am expecting some gasps, some open jaws in shock and maybe some sympathetic sounds from my classmates. I am interested to see how it's going to play out.
The "after" assessment
I presented my fear assignment to my class, and it went pretty much as I had hypothosized it would. Through a powerpoint presentation (yes, a new media student that actually used a form a media for her presentation, ha) I showed that my fear is of a twisty slide at Holiday Park (link at the top of this page to the PP presentation). I included a definition of what fear was, then I deconstructed the definition to show how and why my fear was legit.
When I first put up the picture of the slide, although no-one really laughed, I saw some puzzled looks on peoples faces and a few smiles just on the verge of laughter. When I put up the next picture that showed an x-ray of my ankle with a boat load of metal hardware in it, there were gasps, some people said ewwww and others were in total shock. The shock pretty much remained through the rest of my presentation. As stated in my initial assessment, this is exactly what I was expecting to happen.
There were really good questions that people asked me at the end and others were sympathetic because they have had injuries that have affected them too. As far as a change, I really don't think there was anything that I needed to or could change. I feel that I presented my fear in a way that showed it was for real and I got the reaction that I wanted and expected. The only thing that I was missing that I wanted to show was a picture the day I got my soft cast off (2 weeks after the first surgery) and it showed all the stitches and nastiness of my ankle. I think that would've gotten even more gasps! Other than that though, I wouldn't change a thing. I think by me presenting it with visuals really made a stronger impact than if I would've just talked about it.
In trying to think about who's assignment I most related to, my first thought is to say my own. It was definitely difficult to "expose" myself like that... I try to present myself as a person who has it all together and is strong, but this showed my weak side which was hard. If I had to go with a secondary, it would be (I think their names were) Robert and Joe. If I have their names correct they were both the ones that had a fear of intamacy which stemmed from a past marriage. I can definitely relate to that on a very personal level (even though I didn't speak up in class that night). After being married to a complete a-hole before, being verbally and mentally abused for several years and cheated on, I was very skeptical entering in to another relationship, although my husband now, I have known since I was 14 (I'm almost 32 now). The things I went through with my ex-husband still affect me to this day even though he and I divorced almost 7 years ago and I have been with my current husband for 5 years. I am just now getting to the point where I am starting to slowly let down my "I don't want me or my kids to get hurt" wall. Because of how he treated me and the things he said to me, I still have self-body image problems. Due to health problems, of the course of time I was with my ex-husband, I gained close to 80 pounds (which now my total weight-gain since I first met my ex in 2001 is 100 pounds)... the heavier I got, even though he knew it was from health problems, the less he was attracted to me. In fact he would even tell me that even though he wasn't physically attracted to me anymore, he would still "do me". That really messes with your head.... so now when my husband tells me that he loves me just the way I am, I have a hard time hearing/believing it. So I definitely see/understand where those guys were coming from when they were talking about their fear. When you've been hurt so badly by someone who is supposed to love you no matter what... it makes it very hard to believe that won't happen again.
My project is going to be presented in a power point presentation and when I show my initial slide in the presentation, I am guessing there is going to be some laughter and lots of curious faces trying to figure out how anyone could have a fear of what I'm going to show. When I show the next slide of the presentation, I am expecting some gasps, some open jaws in shock and maybe some sympathetic sounds from my classmates. I am interested to see how it's going to play out.
The "after" assessment
I presented my fear assignment to my class, and it went pretty much as I had hypothosized it would. Through a powerpoint presentation (yes, a new media student that actually used a form a media for her presentation, ha) I showed that my fear is of a twisty slide at Holiday Park (link at the top of this page to the PP presentation). I included a definition of what fear was, then I deconstructed the definition to show how and why my fear was legit.
When I first put up the picture of the slide, although no-one really laughed, I saw some puzzled looks on peoples faces and a few smiles just on the verge of laughter. When I put up the next picture that showed an x-ray of my ankle with a boat load of metal hardware in it, there were gasps, some people said ewwww and others were in total shock. The shock pretty much remained through the rest of my presentation. As stated in my initial assessment, this is exactly what I was expecting to happen.
There were really good questions that people asked me at the end and others were sympathetic because they have had injuries that have affected them too. As far as a change, I really don't think there was anything that I needed to or could change. I feel that I presented my fear in a way that showed it was for real and I got the reaction that I wanted and expected. The only thing that I was missing that I wanted to show was a picture the day I got my soft cast off (2 weeks after the first surgery) and it showed all the stitches and nastiness of my ankle. I think that would've gotten even more gasps! Other than that though, I wouldn't change a thing. I think by me presenting it with visuals really made a stronger impact than if I would've just talked about it.
In trying to think about who's assignment I most related to, my first thought is to say my own. It was definitely difficult to "expose" myself like that... I try to present myself as a person who has it all together and is strong, but this showed my weak side which was hard. If I had to go with a secondary, it would be (I think their names were) Robert and Joe. If I have their names correct they were both the ones that had a fear of intamacy which stemmed from a past marriage. I can definitely relate to that on a very personal level (even though I didn't speak up in class that night). After being married to a complete a-hole before, being verbally and mentally abused for several years and cheated on, I was very skeptical entering in to another relationship, although my husband now, I have known since I was 14 (I'm almost 32 now). The things I went through with my ex-husband still affect me to this day even though he and I divorced almost 7 years ago and I have been with my current husband for 5 years. I am just now getting to the point where I am starting to slowly let down my "I don't want me or my kids to get hurt" wall. Because of how he treated me and the things he said to me, I still have self-body image problems. Due to health problems, of the course of time I was with my ex-husband, I gained close to 80 pounds (which now my total weight-gain since I first met my ex in 2001 is 100 pounds)... the heavier I got, even though he knew it was from health problems, the less he was attracted to me. In fact he would even tell me that even though he wasn't physically attracted to me anymore, he would still "do me". That really messes with your head.... so now when my husband tells me that he loves me just the way I am, I have a hard time hearing/believing it. So I definitely see/understand where those guys were coming from when they were talking about their fear. When you've been hurt so badly by someone who is supposed to love you no matter what... it makes it very hard to believe that won't happen again.